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Friday, January 31, 2003
I just got theArt of Noise compliation Daft. Daft is an amazing album. It actually showcases the birth of modern techno music. It's an interesting album that contains collages of noise rather than songs. The music is interesting and thought provoking and is arranged beautifully. Some tracks of note are Donna, Close(to the edit) [close(to the edit) has clips in it which can be heard on Prodigy's Fire Starter], and Moments In Love (which Madonnaused in lieu of the traditional wedding march when she married Sean Penn). Art of Noise is a band that to most people never so much as made a ripple. That was fine with them. The band thrived on obscurity and shied from publicity. In most publicity stills members of the band can be seen wearing drama masks which became a trademark of the band at one point. Art of Noise is what happens when a collective group of talented musicians attempt to create something new by scrapping some of the fundimental musical instruments with the more diverse. They sample a diverse array of sounds including a motor starting, metal hitting glass, 1950's ragtime, and a variety of synthesizers. It's amazing to hear the things they were able to do in the 1980's before the advant of computers. They remain one of the most sampled bands in the world, 3rd only to Kraftwerk and James Brown.
Thursday, January 30, 2003
I'm sitting here stunned. Someone who I work with actually had the adacity to bitch at me over COFFEE FILTERS. He bitched because I (along with several others) like to use the filters as bowls when I microwave popcorn. I do it so that I don't get my hand covered in grease by reaching into the bag. He went on and on about how the company only had so many filters. I was tempted to ask him if he was serious but decided to keep my mouth shut instead. I egged him on a little at one point by pointing out that we've never been out of coffee before and that it's one of the few things that the company pays for but other than that I sat that there while he blathered on about COFFEE FILTERS. I really do fail to see where maturity comes into play in a business environment. Especially since this man is easily 35 years my senior. Oh well.
okay so I feel semi guilty. I haven't been blogging as much as I normally do. I just don't want to bore readers with mindless bilge that I type about my days. I want my blog to be incitefull or at least interesting and amusing. I'm moving away from the daily journal idea and more towards stories, and essays about my life and opinions of things around me. That doesn't mean that if something exciting happens that I won't blog about it or that I won't keep posting current events. It just means that I want to make better quality writing for myself. I also promised to put up pictures which I will attempt to do sometime between this week and next. I should have new pictures of my trip to Grand Rapids, Columbus, and pictures of me, my friend Jill, Emily, and their respective pets. Also I'm toying with another idea that I'd like to call random weirdness where I'm going to post an interesting or strange picture that I found while surfing the net each week and I'm finally going to update my artist of the month. So look for some new updates and more blogging goodness to come in the next couple of days. Oh and just one more note. My boyfriend is taking me to Los Angeles for my birthday (which is February 12th,) next week so I won't be posting anything from Friday until Tuesday.
Wednesday, January 29, 2003
I'm SO excited. I just found out who some of the founders of modern day techno are. It was by accident really. I was reading Keith's blog about Madonna, which led me to her site which bounced me to a magazines top 100 video's of all time list. From there I discovered Art of Noise. I've been obsessed all this morning in gleaning as much information about them as possible. After looking over all of the standard sites (Rolling Stone has a great artist's archive surprisingly and Google) I was finally able to hear some of their work by going to Best Buy's website. Apparently Art of Noise is the 3rd most sampled artist of all time 3rd only to Kraftwerk and James Brown. I must by the Best of Art of Noise. I'm so EXCITED. Now you know how my mornings gone.
I keep going round and round on the same old circuit
A wire travels underground to a vacant lot
Where something I can't see interupts the current
And shrinks the picture down to a tiny dot
And from behind the screen, it can look so perfect
But it's not
So here I'm sitting in my car at the same old stop light
I keep waiting for a change, but I don't know what
So red turns into green turning into yellow
But I'm just frozen here on the same old spot
And all I have to do is just press the pedal
But I'm not
No, I'm not
People are tricky, you can't afford to show
Anything risky, anything they don't know
The moment you try, well, kiss it goodbye
So baby kiss me like a drug, like a respirator
And let me fall into the dream of the astronaut
Where I get lost in space that goes on forever
And you make all the rest just an afterthought
And I believe it's you who could make it better
though it's not
No, it's not
No, it's not
Monday, January 27, 2003
I had the best weekend ever. I got to see my best friend emily who I love dearly and missed horribly. I vowed to her that I'm going to see her at least twice a year. Between the demands of a job, and a boyfriend that isn't always easy (she lives 2 1/2 hours away). We didn't do a whole lot but it was nice just getting to talk and hang out. I have pictures which I'll post over the next day or so when I have a spare moment. Now on a completely not related note. What the hell is the world coming to when you can see 16 year old Russian Lesbians snog live on stage! I just found out about this from my friend Danny and found it to be hilarious. Anything to make a buck I suppose. If I thought that the girls were doing this because they were really in love and not just to sell records I'd be all for it. As is I think it's just a bunch of publicity hogwash. If any good comes of it though than I'll be happy. I wonder when we'll see two boys kissing on stage.................................................
Friday, January 24, 2003
this is my blogging code. Big thanks to Ron for hosting the blogging code. B2 d- t k s u- f x- e++ l-- c
Time is an interesting thing. When you’re young a year is an eternity. Things can change so drastically in the course of one year. As you get older however time seems to take on a different flow. What once moved by so slowly now moves by too quickly. Suddenly all of your friends are graduating from college and getting ready to get married. Someone you knew from High School got pregnant and is now a mother. You’re no longer the fresh faced teen you were when you graduated. Everything is different and yet so much stays the same. You have to start looking for new dreams. “I want to be a doctor” and suddenly you are one so it’s time to say I want a house and a husband, or I want to move to the city. You suddenly start shedding the shell of what you dreamed of being to become the person that you’re supposed to be. You become wiser and look at people who are still in High School and think “my god these kids have no idea what their in for”. I think that’s why High School is considered to be by many the most carefree time in their life. I think that the ignorance of the fact that the world is really nothing like they think it is, is what makes High School so great. You don’t have to worry about a 401k retirement plan, mortgage, or what your career goals are. You don’t have people explaining health insurance, and how you’ll need a good dental plan, and you don’t have to worry. I will say this though, as you get older the challenges may be greater but so are some of the rewards. Since I’ve graduated from High School and jumped off the high dive of immaturity into the real world I’ve had some amazing experiences. I’ve met people who’ve changed my life and I’ve learned more about what I want out of life and how to get it. I learned that we don’t always get to do the things that we want but that part of life is taking a situation you don’t like and turning it into something positive. I’ve learned that no one really has it together and those that think they do are usually the ones who have the most problems. Mostly what I’ve learned is that your life is open to lead you where ever you want to go but you have to be willing to work in order to get there.
Thursday, January 23, 2003
Today it's time to talk about money. Money is the worst of all evils if you ask me. You work so hard to get it and barely get to enjoy it. I've started to realize that the more money you make the less you seem to have to do the things you need. Everytime I turn around I'm paying for something that requires me to dole out a large sum of money. I need to learn to manage my finances better and budget. Sadly I'm an idiot. Budgeting is all well and good when you are attentive to details which I am not. So I've decided to put myself on a new type of plan. I'm going to start being a receipt saver. I'm going to calculate down to the last penny exactly what goes into my bank account and what comes out. I HAVE to. I'm tired of always being broke or just scraping by so it's time to tighten my belt. Hopefully this will lead to some positive results.
"They'd wish success for themselves and their friends and that would include lots of money" from Shitloads of Money by Liz Phair
Tuesday, January 21, 2003
Nothing of any real value to contribute today. I wish I could think of something but I'm suffering from somewhat of a brain fart. So instead I've put this link to Amber to amuse you. Amusing and sick ♥
Monday, January 20, 2003
My weekend was incredible. Friday I came down to Columbus and my boyfriend and I went to a little bar called Trade Winds. We had a great time and saw some old friends and got a little toasted but not terribly drunk. It was an all and all good night. On Saturday we ate breakfast, worked out and went cd shopping. We got ourselves ready for our dance show in Canton (dancing, stripping it's all the same). We loaded all of our junk in my car and drove 2 hours to Canton. We got a room at the Red Roof Inn (big excitement there [sarcasm]) and relaxed for a little while before we got ready for our show. We had a good night and it was fun as usual. We got to see Tina (who you can see trying to make your's truly flash the camera here). Now before anyone gets in a huff about me stripping here's the deal. I do this once a month with my boyfriend for FUN and a little extra cash. I don't let guys grab my crotch (although they have tried once or twice and have had their hands forcibly removed) and I don't let anyone take advantage of me, I may strip but that doesn't make me a prostitute. I don't degrade myself in any way shape or form for money. A dollar isn't worth my pride (and if you think taking off my clothes means sacrificing my pride then please stop reading my weblog because you don't know me that well). Sunday was the topper. Sunday was a beaut. My baby and I hung around all day and did absolutely nothing. We were couch potatoes, because we were saving our energy for later that night. That night we went to the local night club Axis and saw the Lady Chablis (from Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil fame). Chablis was amazing. She was the sassiest, funniest, best drag performer I've ever had the privilage of seeing. She was just incredible, and during one of her numbers she asked for my boyfriends help in getting off the stage so he hoisted her down and she sat right at our table for a few moments. It was great. Now I'm back at work and bored and supposed to be training (which means I can work on my webpage) and recovering from the weekend in general.
Friday, January 17, 2003
Today is a good day. I'm happy because I get to see my boyfriend tonight which is always a joy and because we have a fun filled weekend ahead of us. I don't know what we're doing tonight other than a long standing appointment. On Saturday we're going to work out and relax before our dance show in Canton which is always fun. I think what I like best about stripping in Canton is that it's in a remote area of Ohio so when we come into town it's a big deal. The people are always really nice and it's generally a lot of fun. We get to see Tina who is a transgender female in her late 50's who's a complete riot and get to get tanked while making money. Then on Sunday we head back to Columbus so I can get my tattoo touched up and then that night we get to see the famous Lady Chablis from "Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil" at Axis. I'm excited since "Midnight..." is one of my all time favorite books. I never saw the movie because I liked the book too much to do it a disservice. So that's my weekend in a nutshell and I can't wait to get started. One last note I added two more blogger links to my list Keithers and Wahlee who are both great and have incredible blogs. Check them out!
"Won't you lift me up, High apon your love" from Come into My World by Kylie Minogue
Thursday, January 16, 2003
Today I thought I'd return to a normal update of what's going on in the life of me. Last night I went out for drinks with an old friend of mine Mike Allan. Mike's a great guy that I've known for years. We had an awesome time together and got to catch up. It was an all together enjoyable evening. I'm glad to be seeing some of my good friends before I head Columbus bound. Next weekend I'm hopefully going to be able to see my best friend Emily. Emily and I went to college together and bonded instantly like glue. Emily has taken me to places I've never been before and shown me some really cool stuff. She's the same kind of curious mind that I am and I think that's why we really click. So I can't wait. It's been almost a year since I've seen her. I'm gonna be kinda sad too though because my boyfriends going to be off in Las Vegas shakin his booty for ca$h (while he gave up the porn thing he and I both strip around the Ohio area at least once a month [it's kind of a cheap thrill and a good way to make extra cash]). So I'll miss my baby but I'm excited to see Emily. So that's what's new and exciting in this boy's life I'm sure I'll blog more as more comes to me.
"It's the thought of you with someone else" from Go Fishing by Weezer
Wednesday, January 15, 2003
I thought I haven't done a funny post in a while so I thought what the hell I'll give you guys some words to live by
Today’s little post has to do with only one thing. Curiosity. The say that curiosity killed the cat but satisfaction brought him back. I suppose that’s true of me. I’m fascinated by the bizarre and unusual. That’s probably why I favor movies like Gummo, and Paris is Burning over every day typical run of the mill movies. That’s also why I choose to listen to bands like Ladytron, PJ Harvey, That Dog, and Lamb over traditional radio play music. I have an appetite for the interesting and an undying curiosity to match. My sense of adventure lies in putting myself into otherwise uncomfortable situations and seeing how I fair. This has led to many adventures, from my trip to IML, to a Goth Club in Detroit at 5:00 in the morning. I’ve got this strange fixation on the less mainstream activities of the gay community. I’m fascinated by the idea of leather and the whole concept but you’ll never catch me playing slave to anyone (my sense of humor and sarcasm wouldn’t make me a very good slave, plus I’ve got a fighting spirit) but I’m curious as to what makes these leather bears tick. I’ve been trying to get my boyfriend to take me to a leather bar for a while mostly because I’ve never been to one before other than in Chicago (Manhole). So I’m curious to see what these bars are like and who their patrons are. It’s mostly idle curiosity. I like to try new things and figure that you only live once so you may as well live interesting. I’m one of those people who would go and see the freakshow and have my nose pressed up against the glass to see what happens next. I sometimes wonder where my tastes for the bizarre developed and I think it was mainly to boredom with the mainstream. When I was in High School my friends and I all had that in common. We saw movies like Rocky Horror, and Eraserhead. We listened to the likes of Lydia Lunch, The Cure, Depeche Mode, The Pixies, and Siousxie and the Banshees. We went to little local Ska concerts and to the Royal Oak independent movie theater. We read books like Junkie, Skipped Parts, Still Life With Woodpecker, Helter Skelter, and Desolation Angels. We just delved in things that were a little bit of kilter. From there on in I’ve always had a fascination with interesting things. I like new types of stimulus in my life. I think that curiosity is what will keep me young for years to come or get me in a lot of trouble.
Tuesday, January 14, 2003
Stupidity. We’re all guilty of it at one point or another and truthfully some of us would be out of a job if stupid people didn’t exist. My job is based on people who are so afraid of computer that they don’t know the first thing about it. These people were presented with a computer as if it were a foreign object that they’d never seen and were somehow expected to use. Most of these people consist of men and women in their mid forties who were working long before computers became a necessity and probably don’t own a computer of their own. These people are not the tinkerers who spend weekends fixing up their cars, or who install their home entertainment system. These are the people who either have someone else do that for them or find the product with the SIMPLEST instructions for fear that they can’t rely on their own intelligence to get them out of a certain situation. These are the people who hit the panic button when a toolbar goes missing in word, or their margins are incorrect. These people are about as computer illiterate as a bum on the street. Yet these people get paid tens of thousands of dollars to entire the data that they collect into a computer each day. I am amazed at the ability of these people to use a computer for several years and still not know the first thing about the programs they use for 70% of their work day. What also amazes me is their lack of desire to learn the first thing about their computer. These are the people who are under the false impression that owning a computer means never having to work to upkeep one. They don’t realize that sometimes the engine of their computer needs a metaphorical oil change just like their car (i.e. rebuilding the desktop on a Mac, or running a disk defrag on a pc). These people expect that their computer is some sort of living brain that can think and do work all on it’s own. I suspect that if that really was the case these computers would drag themselves by the mouse if they had to and get as far away from the idiots tapping at their keyboards as possible. Now I’m not saying that everyone should be a computer genius, lord knows I’m not, all I’m saying is that if you have to deal with something on a regular basis and it’s probably going to become a part of your life for as long as you live than make it a point to become acquainted with the damn thing. Try taking a class or reading a book, or even just looking through the damn thing sometime. Knowledge is power so arm yourself for battle. Don’t just sit there like some type of moron and scratch your head and tap keys praying that your computer will fix itself. Because while I’m happy to fix a problem for you I’ll warn you first it’s going to cost you……….
Friday, January 10, 2003
I’m waiting. I think that is an eternal statement. All of my life I’ve been waiting for something or someone. When I was in High School I was waiting to meet the right guy or to meet any guy that I could hold onto for more than a 6 month period. Hell in High School I was lucky if I made it to 3 months. I was also waiting to get the hell out of High School. I wanted nothing more than freedom from that place. I was happy when I got it. When I was in college I was waiting for excitement. I was the only gay person I knew on a very small campus of a very remote college located in Grand Rapids, Michigan. I waited until I had a chance to break free and did it at every chance I got. That’s why in my first year of College, I went to South Bend Indiana, Pittsburgh Pennsylvania, Chicago Illinois, and only went to class on the occasion because I was so depressed. When I moved back home and in my parents house I went to community college, and worked full time at a retail store in the mall that I was glad to be away from when I first went to college. I waited for opportunity, and I waited for the other shoe to drop. During the summer of my first year back I moved out of my house after a huge fight with my parents. I went to Saugatuck Michigan, for a weekend vacation, and moved to Ypsilanti with some of my friends. While there I became addicted to drugs, lost my job, and became a loser. Then I met Brett. Brett convinced me to move back in with my parents and to go back to college so that’s what I did. Brett was a saving grace for me at the time. I was so in love and everything was wonderful. Then Brett told me that he was moving back in with his parents in Ludington Michigan. I shattered for one night. The next day I called Brett back and told him that I wasn’t ready to end our relationship just because he was moving 3 hours away. So that was when I started my first long distance relationship. Everything was great. Then the other shoe dropped. Brett got busy, too busy to talk to me. I would call and call and he wouldn’t call me back. I finally sent him a letter and told him that I loved him more than I’ve ever loved anyone in my life and that I wanted to be with him and that if he wanted to be with me all he’d have to do was write me back. I mailed the letter. Then I waited for a response that never came. Then I waited for my heart to heal. That took about a year. During that year I went through many painful discoveries about who I was and what I was about. Near the end of that year I got a job working with Electronic Data Services as a computer technician and found a boyfriend named Don. Don was a school teacher from Canada, and Don was also 36 years old. Don showed my how good and bad a relationship can be and taught me about little pleasures and tequila shots. We had some bad fights that stemmed from tequila which I am convinced is the devils blood (it makes me feisty and horny). We ended up breaking up. I had another personal tragedy happen about that time that I’ll save for another time. I waited to see what else God would throw my way. I started working out and moved out a second time. This was on much better terms than the first time. I moved in with my best friend Eric and his boyfriend John. I became a lot happier. Eric taught me to free myself from the negativity that surrounded me and Eric helped me find my spine. Eric also took me to New York for the first time. That’s where I met Mark. Mark was a good guy, and was just what I needed at the time. I remember how much fun I had flying between Detroit and New York. Mark and I only actually saw each other a total of 4 times during the time when we dated but they were fun. It was time to move on. I started stripping around that time, and waited to see what the reaction from my friends would be. Some encouraged me and some disapproved, but I found a new sense of myself. I became more confident. I had fun during that time of my life being single and spreading my wings. Then came Motorball. Motorball is Detroits own version of a circuit party. I volunteered to be a gogo boy at the event and helped setup and did a couple of charity events. I met some really incredible people and finally started to enjoy living in Detroit. Then came the actual night of Motorball and that’s when I met my current boyfriend. THE BOYFRIEND. I remember that I was showing all the other dancers where to get ready and he came up to me and told me that I was his. I waited for him to tell me that he was joking. He never did. We had a great time that night and promised that we’d call each other. I ended up calling him the next day. I waited to see if he’d remember me and he did. We’ve been dating ever since. It will be 9 months at the end of this month. You want to know what else. There’s only one thing I’m waiting for now, and that’s move down to Columbus so that I can be with him.
"I'm waiting and waiting for you, I'm right here and waiting for you" from Milk by Garbage
Thursday, January 09, 2003
I wrote this last night and thought that it would make a good post for today It’s funny what growing older does to you. I’m sitting right now in Starbucks in Novi, Michigan waiting for my friend Jill to get off of work. When I first came in I walked past a table where a girl and two boys sat. One of the boys stared at me the whole way past. These kids don’t look much older than 16. I think to myself as I look at this young and obviously gay kid how different we both are. If he even knew half of what I knew right now then he’d probably run away from me screaming. Instead what he sees is a kindred, another person that proves that he isn’t alone after all. He may find me attractive or he may not but his gaydar is going off like crazy even though I’m not being all that obvious and I haven’t spoken a word to him edge wise. He reminds me a little of me at that age. Still completely unaware of what really waited for me beyond High School but thinking at the time that I knew everything there was to know about life. So truthfully as sad as it sounds High School probably was the most carefree time in my life. It was when the promise of love and relationships still hadn’t been tainted by the actual reality that sometimes things don’t work out the way that we want them too, and that relationships actually involve compromise. High School for me was a fantasy land that one day I’d meet Prince Charming who would be a perfect man with no flaws whatsoever. The reality is that 3 years after my graduation I met a man from Columbus who’s 19 years my senior and was involved in the Adult film industry when I met him. Obviously this wasn’t exactly what I was looking for. However this turned out to be exactly what I needed. My boyfriend turned out to be one of the most loving and caring individuals that I’ve ever had the privilege of meeting. Yes we had our hard times but those seem to be behind us at the moment and I couldn’t be happier. My boyfriend is supportive and caring. He encourages me to follow my dreams. In short he’s my number one fan. I won’t lie and say that we always have it perfect and I certainly won’t say that we’re the perfect couple but I will say this. There have been less mornings were I want to crawl back in bed and hide from the world since I met him, he also taught me to be appreciative of the body that I was given and learn how to improve what I didn’t like. I now hold my head just a little bit higher when I go out. I smile a lot more too. I’m not the same person I was when I met my boyfriend and for that I’m glad. While we’re certainly not the perfect couple we are a happy one and that is good enough for me.
Wednesday, January 08, 2003
Today I was thinking about music. I just uploaded Everything But the Girls missing remix. I just wanted to comment two things about this song. 1. Tracey Thorn has one of the most beautiful and enchanting voices I've ever heard 2. This remix was a huge hit for Everything But The Girl and made them decide to change their sound from a very accoustic format into a more electronic based sound. Lastly I decided to give you my 20 top albums of all time. Now when I say of all time I mean simply put I can't live without these albums, if I ever lose them I will immediately go out and rebuy them. These are albums that I've had to replace because they've been worn out.
20. 604 by Ladytron 19. Trickle by Olive 18. Retreat from the Sun by That Dog 17. Fumbling Towards Ecstacy by Sarah McLachlan 16. So Far... The Best of Sinead O'Conner by Sinead O'Conner 15. The Return of the Rentals by the Rentals 14. Elastica by Elastica 13. Rooty by The Basement Jaxx 12. The Best of Blondie by Blondie 11. Siamese Dream by The Smashing Pumpkins 10. Haunted by Poe 09.Bachelor #2 by Aimee Mann 08.To Bring You My Love by PJ Harvey 07. Navy Blues by Sloan 06.Exile in Guyville 05. When the Pawn by Fionna Apple 04. Gran Turismo by The Cardigans 03. Tempermental by Everything But The Girl 02. Behind the Music The Go-Gos by The Go-Gos 01. Little Earthquakes by Tori Amos There you have it. Just one quick note, these cd's aren't in any specific order. I love all types of music and would be extremely hard pressed to choose one album over another.
Tuesday, January 07, 2003
Sometimes I sit back and contemplate the events of my life and think Wow this is just the beginning. Other days I feel like it's the end. It's a very strange taffy pull that I'm going through right now. The highs are better but the lows are worse. It's interesting the way that somedays just fly by in the blink of an eye and others seem to drag on endlessly. I'm still trying to figure out were I'm going, but I'm happy where I am. I know three things 1. I want to move to Columbus to be with my boyfriend 2. I want to go back to college and get my degree in graphic design and 3. I want to live on my own for at least one year. Hopefully everyone who reads this blog will go with me on my exciting journey of moving from the state I've lived in my entire life, and going back to school as well as establishing myself in a semi new environment.
Monday, January 06, 2003
So today is Monday and the shit is piled high. Work is a mess, and I just found out that the whole license fiasco that I had back on October 28, is still not resolved. While I went to the effort of paying off the court, getting my license plates renewed, AND getting my address changed I wasn't made awaire of the fact the the police officer who pulled me over that night gave me ANOTHER ticket for an expired license plate. Now I apparently owe the court another $115.00 for that ticket which when explained at the time was supposed to be expunged from my record.GOD BLESS AMERICA. What this whole issue comes down to is that some idiot didn't do their damn paperwork and now I'm in a mess because of it. Isn't that peachy. Oh well that's life. I'm going to blog again when I'm in a better mood and hope to upload some cool pictures that I took this weekend. Thanks to everyone for listening to me bitch.
"You've got to have shitloads of M O N E Y, money" from Shitloads of money by Liz Phair
Sunday, January 05, 2003
Sigh, I'm such a perfectionist. My new title bar looks great except that the boxes are off center. I suppose I'll have to fix that but you all understand if I don't do it today. I think all those years of art class have made me anal retentive to little details like that. Oh well. I'm sitting here on Sunday waiting for my boyfriend to get back from the gym and just thinking about all the things that we've been through. We've had a very interesting relationship. It's had it's ups and downs but overall has been a great learning experience for the both of us. I just hope that we'll continue to grow as a couple and learn from each other. Life is good and that's my worry. Oh well I suppose I should try to be an optomist but life has had a weird way of discouraging me from doing that which is why I suppose I'm more of a cynisist instead.
"I'm so tired of playin', playin' with this bow and arrow, I'm gonna give my heart away, leave it for other girls to play" from Glory Box by Portishead
Saturday, January 04, 2003
Today is just another typical Saturday. The weather is grey and overcast but other than that everything is okay. I'm sitting here in my boyfriends bedroom and he's highly annoyed, but that's okay. He'll be fine in a little bit. It's just one of those lazy, throw on some comfy clothing, and schluff about days. I don't want to do anything that involves high stress. In fact the most stressfull thing I intend to do this weekend is work out. Other than that it's lazy days, which in all honesty are just what the boyfriend and I need. This New Years led to only one resolution. To get BIGGER. My goal is to try to gain at least 20 lbs by next year, which for someone who's matabolism is as high as mine is an admirable goal. I figure I need just a little more muscle to make my work at the gym show through. Keep looking for those updates I promised, they are on the way!
"It's just another day in the neighborhood, Just another day..........." from Just another day by Mary J Blige
Friday, January 03, 2003
Well everyone this is it. The new features that I'm going to be adding hopefully sometime next week are a personal pictures section, so that y'all can see my ugly mug and what my life looks like a little better. I'm also hoping to add another artist to my monthly artists very soon, in general I'm revamping some old stuff. I like keeping the design of my page fresh because it keeps things interesting and keeps me from getting rusty at html. So far I've had 5 different designs. My first two were created using the templates that Blogger gave me. Alas I inspired to make something that was completely my own. This my headache began as well as a lesson or two in html. This inspired the first homemade page which was Aqua and black, with stars. The second to follow shortly after was the more ambious Plaids for winter. Now this. Truthfully I hope everyone likes this new design but if they don't let me know because I DO have the plaid in storage on a disk and you never know. Anyways that's my html story. If anyone is wondering how I'm creating my page designs I work mosty with adobe photoshop to create the spaces and my banners and Microsoft Frontpage to do the layout and design. One last note ALL PICTURES that are used in the design elements as well as other things were self created (something I like to say with a little bit of pride.) If someone likes what they see let me know and I'd be happy to see if I can whip something up for you. "I know her, she used to follow everywhere we'd go and it's so sweet now she's sleeping with a boy I know" from Discotraxx by Ladytron
this page was inspired by Ladytron and their cd design not the white stripes. I hope to do a bunch of cool things, like replace the picture behind my title with other random photos that I like taken with my digital camera. Sorry if anyone is missing from my blog list. I'll add you back in as time allows. :) hope everyone likes my new page
just a quick note. I'm going to be changing my blog design around a bit. I'm planning on having some cool new features as well as some revamped old ones. Please let me know what you think of the new layout and don't hesitate to be brutal!
Thursday, January 02, 2003
I'm so tired that I can barely type. New Years was amazing. I went to club Exit with my boyfriend, my friends Eric, Chris, Brianna, and Daryl and stayed there from 11:00 pm until about 12:30 pm the next day. It was insane. During the beginning of the Night was the Paul Oakenfold party, this party was mostly a straight event and there were a lot of New York Chica's there with their Guido boyfriends. It wasn't too bad but I don't get the hype behind Paul Oakenfold. At about 4:00 am, Paul Oakenfold's set was done and straight people began leaving the party as the gay people started showing up from other engagements (Roxy, and private parties). My friend Daryl was amoung these people. Daryl had gone to Roxy and told me and my boyfriend the funniest story that I heard on that trip, it goes like this. "There's this area in the Roxy called that Catwalk and I was going through for curiousities sake at the prompting of a friend. Now this area is were the seedy happenings take place. As I'm walking though it I see this man and I can't help but tap him on the shoulder and say 'You know, pardon me for saying this but you look just like John Norris (from MTV)' and he responds 'Gee I wonder why.........' and slinks off in the darkness with dick on his breath". After we heard Daryls story the night took an interesting twist. All of a sudden out of no were Go Go boys start dancing on the speakers and the dance floor fills with hot shirtless gay men. Junior Vasquez starts spinning his set and the music is good. The dance floor just keeps filling up. Then Kevin Aviance gets ready to come out and perform. He's wearing this polyurithane jump suit with stilts that make him about 14 feet tall. Well somehow Junior doesn't put the right music on so that Kevin can perform, so Kevin is stuck doing a quick impromptu and slinks off the stage. Little did I know that my boyfriend is an aquantence of Kevins from back when he used to live in Washington D.C. So I ended up meeting Kevin Aviance. The rest of the night is kind of a blur of gay men, lights, techno music, a rush to the airport, and a pounding headache. Now I'm back here at my cubicle in Michigan praying that the day goes by quickly. Hope everyone else had a great New Year.
