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Thursday, December 22, 2005
Everyone Moved out of the Neighborhood
I'm really just writing this because I need to have an outlet. I think it's interesting that I brushed off my blogroll and checked in on some of the websites that I haven't looked at in almost a year. Some people have kept up with their blogs, some like me only check in once and a great while. It's like we're coming back to visit old friends and let them know that we're okay. We're just not able to commit to a daily writing. I honestly think that I'd be boring as a daily writer anyways, always whining and bitching about some absurd thing. I'm better off writing down a mix of my thoughts from the past couple of months. It is kind of scary to go back to your old neighborhood because you see how people changed the houses you used to identify as markers and how tall the trees have grown.
So I've been busy over the past two years in ways that you can't imagine. I've gone through a relationship which I talked about extensively on this blog. That relationship is now over, but has ended on excellent terms. I've also graduated from Cosmetology school, moved to Cincinatti, hated it and moved back in with Mom and Dad in Detroit. I've also got an exciting oppertunity to move to Chapel Hill, NC. I also got a LOT more tattoos, colored my hair every color you can conceive, got my nose pierced, got a mohawk, and went through a lot. I'm really a different person than I was before. I've grown a lot in a little amount of time. I really think that at one point I went fucking crazy and now am coming back from that. I just want out of the Midwest and hopefully in the next two years that will happen.
So here I am sitting and loading music into my brand new iPod at my parents house 2 days after graduating from The Aveda Institute of Cosmetology. I'm moving to Cincinatti by September 11th to start my new job as a cosmetologist at the Ambience Day Spa. When I get myself in some kind of an order and when I get my own internet reconnected I will post more. I promise. Jimmy thanks for checking in on me.
So here is my yearly post. I'm a different person. Drastically different. The sarcasm has died down a bit and led to something a bit more mellow. I'm in a state of quite desperation. I'm almost done with cosmetology school and I'm broke as a joke. I've been going to the Aveda Institute for the past 9 months and haven't had a job. I've been living on the edge of poor. So poor in fact that I don't have money for the internet. I'm actually typing this from my mom and dad's house in Detroit. Well the good news is, I'm finally becoming something. Being in cosmetology school has given me a sense of purpose. When I get done with school I'm moving to Cincinatti and then hopefully in 3 years time I'll be headed out to Seattle Washington.
Don't fear the Reaper Life has changed in so many ways that I can't type enough to tell you how. I've had the desire to communicate for a while but have forgotten it. Now it's back stronger than ever. I'm in college now and am working two jobs. I'm still working out 5 times a week and trying to gain 10 pounds in the next two months. I also shaved my head near bald. I think I'm a different person. These last couple of months have been like walking through a dark tunnel. I think I'm finally at the other side because I can see the light and looking back it wasn't as awful as it felt at the time. I still have a long way to go but I'm getting there.
I'm coming back as something new. Fresh slate for a fresh life. I'm starting a new job for AOL two weeks from now and am going to be doing something different and cool with not only the website but also my writing. I've decided to add a gallery for my photoshop obsession as well. So once things are in place I'll let all the proper bloggers know. Thanks you guys for being there for me and listening when I needed you.
Fizz, Fizz, Fizzle...... I love PJ with all of my heart but ever since I moved down here things have changed. Things have gone from being exciting and fun to boring. I'm tired of going to the fucking movies all the time and I'm tired of staying home every fucking night and watching Alias reruns on dvd. I love PJ with all of my heart and that hasn't changed but I'm fucking bored. We DON'T DO ANYTHING ANYMORE. The most exciting thing I have to look forward to now is the reare occasion that I can force him to go out or going to the coffee house so that I have some outside influence. He's perfectly happy doing nothing... ALL THE TIME. I'm sick of being the asshole who always feels bad because they want to go out. I am just a social person and I miss my friends and I miss my family. There are other things that I miss too. It's just too much to explain right now. All I know is that I'm an asshole and that nobody is holding me prisoner. I guess I just want things to be fun again and right now they're not.
Gloomy Monday It's Monday and PJ is at the gym right now and I'm sitting here thinking about a lot of things. The weather has been grey and overcast all weekend which has been putting me in a funky mood. I'm just sort of sitting here waiting for something to happen.... my life is an everswinging pendelum.
New Job So I finally got a new job and some sense of balance has been restored to my life. I love Columbus and feel like I'm home. My parents have come down and survayed the place and are happy with my surroundings. I'm in a better place emotionally. The boyfriend and I have bonded closer than I thought possible. I'm happy with our life together. I'm getting used to finding my way around Columbus and learning about all sorts of cool little places I didn't know exsisted. I also bought an mp3 player and got into the latest century. So now I walk around the city listening to music and feeling at peace. Today has been a great day. Hopefully there will be many more to come.